WAh,......im blogging...AGAIN!!...ya.... that stupid Queen FORCE ME ONE!!!....arbo no PENCIL!!.... hahahahaha
oh ok....was kinda deep in thoughts today....about things that have been happening to me lah....relationship probs (maybe nt such a prob...coz i cant be bothered i guess....or more like i dont wanna be)........erm....work...ya...and alittle of a family prob.....oh well......
Erm...this song kinda struck me lah....part of it is something i feel so ya.... and again...its kelly clarkson....WHATS HER PROB MANZZ....lolx....song so nice...hahaha....siaozz....madness....
Because of You by Kelly Clarkson
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
ok...ciaoz....eh QUEEN!!....SEE....I POSTED SOMETHING....!!!!!.......
shao_zong Dreams are false hope.... 10/13/2005 03:03:00 AM
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MIRACLE!!!!...... im blogging.....hahahah
Ya...scared they close down my blog coz i nv update.....i still one my archives....hahaha..... oh well..... ya..
QUEEN JILL!!!!!...... HI!!!!!!........................lol
Aiyah...its been ages since i last blog....so ya...here i am...just posting this single post for the sake of doing so....so ya.....
Having my school attachment now.....yup....life is pretty mono.....ya..work everyday....bowl almost everyday...ya...still no imporvement...hahahaha
Well....many things have been happening to me lately.....erm....good and bad....ya....more of bad things lah....so ya.....oh well....im alright lah....just feeling damn LOST (Watch it on channel 5 thursday nite at 10pm,.....hahahaha...) ..... as if i watch it....
Ya....well...im pretty much confused....lost....low in confidence now...... yup......my bowling is practically a gonner now...guess i wont be in the team nxt year alr....sianz....oh well.....ya....arrr....im still damn lousy...hahaha....
is there a relationship GURU out there??????...... i need some help here.... YES HERE!!!!!!
okok....ending here....ciaoz.....
shao_zong Dreams are false hope.... 10/12/2005 12:36:00 AM
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Fark la....whats with my luck lately....
Today....work submission....happily kena sabo by my grpmates la....say they will hand in on time....so ya....passed my part to them to hand in.....basket....all the while i was feeling uneasy lah....got a feeling they will not make it on time lah....happily....reached school at about 12.05 ..... FARK!!!...they haven submit yet lah....thks manz...late submission now my grades gonna suffer lah.....fark la....i already failed that damn paper already lah.....
Sigh~~..... fark la....farking suay lah..... everything just not going right lah....
shao_zong Dreams are false hope.... 8/01/2005 08:41:00 PM
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Damn suay manz...... just my luck la.....
Today, got played out by this guy from ClubHyundai.... apparently he is no hyundai driver.... a S15 driver...
As i was looking for a alarm sound module....he pm to offer me at 40 dollars... so ya...why not...a good buy right??..... guess its too good to be true manz....
Reached jurong to wait for him... ( i stay in the east)..... he out of no where...asked if i was driving a turbo car??? .... i mean...WTF...im from clubhyundai wad.....
He later on said that the sound module cannot put in normal stock alarm....i said nvm...i just but the module from him.... but he later die die don wanna sell... he said if only i buy the whole alarm system which he is selling at $925 .... think i stupid ar.....bloody cock.....
Later on, he just said.... " PLease go change your car, you are riding a stupid getz" ..... " My S15 can win you 5-6 lamp post easily"
..... After reading this.... " HOT " manz.... ... hope he dont crash manzz......
Just my luck lah....fark....
And guess what.... Mid-Sem test....i practically failed lah.... now is fail 2 paper for sure....not sure about the last paper..... sigh~~~.... whats wrong manz......
shao_zong Dreams are false hope.... 7/26/2005 03:20:00 AM
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Sigh~~.....cant seem to slepp...sianz....damn tired of so many things already....arr crap.....dont feel like typing already..... Wadeva la.....
shao_zong Dreams are false hope.... 7/11/2005 04:54:00 AM
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Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breatheNo, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you inYou made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside'
Cause I can't breatheNo, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
shao_zong Dreams are false hope.... 7/07/2005 07:47:00 PM
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Day 2 of Mid-Sem.... yup....erm...today's paper wasnt that bad i suppose.....
tomorrow is the last day...ya...kinda realise that i cant take management subjects lah...sigh~~....hopefully that tomorrow's paper wouldnt be that bad also....but got a feeling it might not be easy lah...coz its management paper....sigh~~~....
Good luck to all marketing people....ciaozz
shao_zong Dreams are false hope.... 7/05/2005 08:29:00 PM
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Day 1 of Mid-Sem.... well....yup....screwed up my first paper.....
Sigh~~.... damn pissed manz....studied so much on the front parts....happily...everything came out on the last 2 chapts that i never put much attention to.....so ya.... 3 questions- 50 marks..... ALL 3 WRONG ANSWERS~!!!!.....sigh~~..... donno lah.... hope my overall can pass lor...
Hopefully the next 2 aint gonna be that bad manz.....
OH ya.... good luck to all Marketing People...... ciaozz
shao_zong Dreams are false hope.... 7/04/2005 08:54:00 PM
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shao_zong Dreams are false hope.... 7/03/2005 04:11:00 AM
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CAnt sleep.....nothing better to do....ya...here's a song.....
I'll always remember
it was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended so soon(yeah)
You were all by yourself Staring up at a dark grey sky,
I was changed.....
In places no one will find All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
Was there that I realized That forever was in your eyes The moment I saw you cry (cry)
The moment that I saw you cry
It was late in September , And I've seen you before(and you were)
You were always the cold one
But I was never that sure......
You were all by yourself Staring up at a dark grey sky....
I was changed......
In places no one will find All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
Was there that I realized That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry....
I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything...alright
I'll always remember,
It was late afternoon
In places no one will find
Baby, oh no no
forever was in your eyes
was there that I realized that forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry Baby Cry!
The moment that I saw you cry Oh no no
I think I saw you cry
The moment I saw you cry (fade out)
I wanted to know you
I wanted to know you
I wanted to know you
Just a stupid song that bugged me the whole day while i was day dreaming in lecture.......
shao_zong Dreams are false hope.... 7/02/2005 04:52:00 AM
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Sigh~~~...... blank........ya....im just staring at this freaking com like nobodies business.....sigh~~~.....
Really donno what to post lah...ya....aint feeling too good....as usual...like i need to say like that.....k ciaozz...
shao_zong Dreams are false hope.... 6/30/2005 04:00:00 AM
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Staring infront of the computer for the past few hours.....sigh~~...also donno what the hell is wrong lah....i still cant sleep....i need to sleep....people are calling me panda now...again..ya....
I still got some medical check up thing tomorrow morning at sports council lah....sianz.....
Next week is Mid-sem already....but im so not in the mood the study lah...aiyah...as usual lah....
Shit la....suddenly gone blank again....donno what to write already....sigh~~~
k ....ciaozz
shao_zong Dreams are false hope.... 6/28/2005 02:10:00 AM
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Sigh~~~............ i cant seem to sleep.....why why why........arrgghhh~~~~~~~~~~~
I am still feeling very much lost....i donno why....its like now....i want to see her...but i dont dare to....because it aint gonna do me any good...ya....if only im a good talker...ya....sweet talker.....so that i could change the way she think ??.... that fellow has the ability....and i dont....sigh~~~~
If only i could.....if only she will realise all of how i feel..... if only i could realise how she feel..... sigh~~~..... If only~~~~~~~
shao_zong Dreams are false hope.... 6/26/2005 04:46:00 AM
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Sigh~~....finals ended yesterday.....sigh~~.....bowled badly lah...ya...was expecting more from myself after the first few games....i was so close to winning something..but yet....sigh~~..nvm....anyway i did quite alrite for a first time lah....so ya....don think abt it liao...its a good experience lor......
Sigh~~~.....haven been feeling any better these few days.....today am home alone the whole day....really feeling very lost now....ya....i also have no idea whats going on with me....i actually kept day dreaming about hoping for life to be better and all...ya....whats wrong with me....
I tried finishing spiderman just now....skipped alot of part....watched the end....and as usual it got me into ( no-link) relating about things between me and her.....its like im waiting till the day she realise me.... ya...like how mary jane realise the truth abt spiderman and the reasons....ya.... ok...i know im talking rubbish all over again....
NOw i only can really just tell myself to face the facts lah....i mean....since talking to her aint gonna make a difference in the way she thinks about things on me...its not gonna change her perspective on things.....i guess....nothing else could help already.....proabably time??....or someone to kok her head....i donno.....sigh~~....im feeling damn shit now lah.... and this time...i do not know who i could talk to....i just hopw i don go crazy lah....aiyha...i wont....i think....i wont act stupid......sigh~~~~
I just dont understand why does things have to end up like this......i mean...why isit that other people always get the happy ending.....but i always seem to get all the bad endings.....what i wished for or dreamed off....always turn out the opposite way in realiaty....ya...worst......much worst......sigh~~~.....
But there isnt anything that i could so about it......why......sigh~~~~
I also dont have to act like im fine.....because she will know whether i am or not.....ya....other people wouldnt be able to know that lah....but ya...she will...somehow....so ya.... sigh~~~.....
I really donno lah.....feeling like fuck now.....stopping here for now....... ciaozz
shao_zong Dreams are false hope.... 6/25/2005 07:11:00 PM
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Sigh~~~......sianz....feeling damn fuck up now....i donno why....
Everything seems to be haunting me all over again....and ya....finals is tomorrow....well done!!....
I donno why lah....but im seriously feeling damn lousy now....ya....like fuck~~.....this sucks lah..... so many things that i just wouldnt understand....i just dont get it....i dont.....what the fuck is wrong lah....
Why does all this even have to happen??....whats the meaning behind all this.....i donno lah....im also confused about certain stuff now.....whats true and whats not.....ya again...what makes me so lousy that i cant win an asshole ??.... am i really that lousy ?....FUCK ~~~~.......WTF...why am i even thinking about all this.....sigh~~~....
k lah....seriously dont feel like doing anything now....k...ciaozz
shao_zong Dreams are false hope.... 6/23/2005 10:05:00 PM
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